If I Knew ThenBook - 2004
We remember Amy Fisher as the forever femme fatale of tabloid journalism - the perennial sixteen-year-old "Long Island Lolita" who shot her lover's wife. But for Amy herself, life hasn't stood still in the last decade and a half. She has grown into a contemplative and confident 30-year-old woman, an award-winning newspaper columnist, and a devoted wife and mother. "I am the person I always should have been," says Amy, "except for a brief but total, unfathomable lapse of judgment in my youth." In this deeply personal account, Amy takes us beyond the scandal and into her real life. She finally addresses the many highly sensationalized, often completely false depictions of who she was, what she did, and who she is now; she takes full responsibility for her impulsive, terrible crime; she shares her thoughts on keeping handguns away from minors and ending domestic violence and the abuse of women in prison; and she writes candidly about her childhood, her relationship with Joey Buttafuoco, the shooting, her years in prison, parole, and how she has pieced her life back together again. Hers is both a chillingly cautionary tale and a truly inspirational story about beginning again and making a life matter.